āThe oddest thing about playing sport is when people ask you how the snookerās going before they ask you how you are. I struggle with that. Itās strange. Itās like, is that before me?ā
Liam Highfield has been through a lot in his career so far, but his outlook on the game is refreshing, loving snooker more than ever, while recognising that it is actually not the be-all and end-all.
The 33-year-old has had something of a nightmare season, breaking his wrist in the summer and finding himself at World Championship qualifying needing to win three matches to retain the professional status he has held since 2010.
āIt still isnāt perfect now, I broke my wrist in September so itās been a long time,ā Highfield told Metro.
āI was on an e-scooter, coming back from practice, I was flying down the road and someone jumped out at me, I tried to go round him and went over the handlebars.
āI can obviously play but itās still stiff and sore. I broke my scaphoid bone, which is apparently one of the bones that takes the longest to heal in the body. So even though itās set and back together they reckon it could be 10-12 months to be back to normal.
āThatās the main reason [for poor results], I struggled after that injury and fell into a bit of a bad time. It got me down, then results donāt go your way and you do start struggling.ā
Highfield has long had to deal with physical and mental issues during his career, with Crohnās disease seeing him in and out of hospital in his twenties, while he has also learned to deal with OCD which brings about anxiety.
Thankfully, all those concerns are under control at the moment, learning to look at his obsessive nature as a positive.
āIāve struggled mentally over the years a little bit with snooker,ā he said. āIāve got OCD, so that gives me anxiety sometimes, but Iām on top of that now, Iāve had a bit of therapy.
āMaybe playing a sport like snooker youāve got to have a bit of that. Youāve got to be quite obsessive to get any good at it because itās so difficult.
āThe guy I was working with said that the same thing that makes me bad makes me good at something. I understood that. Itās just about managing it.ā
Despite various setbacks, Highfieldās outlook on his sport is positive to say the least, with his feathers completely unruffled by a tough year in terms of form and results.
He goes to World Championship qualifying this week confident in his game, but if he does drop off the professional tour he doesnāt reckon it is as dramatic as others do.
āMy gameās still there,ā he said. āItās mad because people keep saying to me, āOh, youāre falling off the tourā and this and that. Iāve got a long career, itās alright. Itās not the end of the world.
āIt seems to be bothering other people more that itās bothering me. Snooker players seem to think being on or off the tour is life and death, but itās not. Iāve been through patches like this before and I always come through them.
āI just love snooker, so itās not a big thing. I donāt care if I play at the Crucible or anywhere else, I just enjoy playing snooker. I love it like I did when I was a kid.ā
Highfield is not pretending it is all sunshine and rainbows, but is so passionate about the game itself that he gets through the tough times.
He enjoys the sport more thanks to how he looks at it, but he reckons he might not win as much as he should do as a result.
āI did fall out of love for a bit, I donāt know if thatās the life away from the table. Travelling, stress, whatever,ā he said. āMy illness on-and-off through the years hasnāt helped. But I love it now more than I did 10 years ago, Iām more into it now than I was in my twenties. I still feel like a kid when I play snooker.
āIt winds me up, it frustrates me, but thatās just part of it. Iāve never played snooker for material things or money.
āIāve never even played for results, in a way. You watch me play sometimes and youāll think, āf***ing hell, no wonder heās not won anything!ā Because Iām just playing most of the time for a feeling, how the game makes me feel.
āItās probably the wrong way, not a winnerās way, and why Iāve not maybe achieved as much. But Iām probably more content with snooker than a lot of players. Being happy is okay.ā
Highfieldās take on the game is reminiscent of Ronnie OāSullivanās, with the Rocket often frustrated by his own performance even if he has seemingly won comfortably.
āIf people see me frustrated, itās not because Iām not winning, itās because Iām frustrated at the game,ā said Highfield. āIām the same when Iām winning. Iām not buzzing when Iām winning. Itās weird.
āA lot of people donāt understand where Ronnieās coming from when he says stuff like that, but I think he makes a lot of sense. Maybe itās if youāve had a few struggles with stuff it doesnāt have the same importance to you. For some people it is life or death, but itās just not.
āIām obsessed with the way I hit the ball, building breaks and manoeuvring balls around the table. Iām more into that than getting to 10 [frames], which is probably the problem.ā
Highfield takes on Stuart Carrington in his opening match at World Championship qualifying on Thursday and is feeling relaxed about the challenge and any potential outcome.
āGiven my rankings over the years Iāve had quite a decent World Championship record, really,ā he said. āQualified three times, Iāve been to Judgement Day another four or five times, Iām not sure. Itās the only long-frame match I get to play, maybe thatās suited me. I feel a bit more relaxed in the World Championship playing over that distance.
āItās alright. If I get to the Crucible Iāll stay on tour, or get through Q School or go and play the Q Tour for a year and Iāll get back on. Iām quite resilient like that.ā
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